Be content with what you have;
rejoice in the way things are.
When you realize there is nothing lacking,
the whole world belongs to you. (44)
~from The Tao Te Ching by Lao-Tzu translation by S. Mitchell
Sometimes, sleep sits empty
on a brick wall.
It doesn’t waver or fall,
it’s thin smoke,
anxiety on a string
swaying in a spring breeze,
more gently than a tire swing—
I count how many likes on my poem,
posted on social media:
only one today;
six the other day;
zero the day before that–
and the poems sit empty
Anxiety takes hold of my breath,
holds it hostage,
zipping it up in too tight of jeans
until stomach aches,
and vomit sneaks up the windpipe
never to escape.
But sits there, uncomfortable—
Even if my life is uneventful,
I still try
to make the day worth something.
I love the sunrise as much as breath,
I love the warmth radiating on my skin,
hands in dirt planting carrot seeds, beets
radishes for their vibrant colors
for their sweet or bitter taste,
hoping they take root—
My roots are not tied down to place,
but to memory,
to my children,
even if unread—
my name ties them to earth
Showing the universe
Life has meaning
and, maybe, in that moment
that I posted that poem,
bravery stood up—
Sometimes, anxiety punches me in the gut,
knocks the wind right out of me
and maybe I’ll fall,
and then again, maybe I won’t.
Each morning that I wake up,
grateful for another chance…
© Gina Marselle, April 26, 2020
3 thoughts on “Like Me”
A great way to capture your feelings of isolation. Thank you.
Thank you so much for reading and commenting. I truly appreciate it.
Love the quiet restrained watching of everything in this poem